Sunday, April 02, 2006
Its been a while since i commited an entry to my usual poetic insights. Today will be one of them, simply becaus im in such a mood.
April Fool's was certainly a mellow reflective day. And the day after it, april 2nd was one where finality precedes all possibilty of reconcilliation and love. I guess its the straw that broke the camel's back. I've concluded without regret and without doubt any possibility of any form of future possibility. Even friendship seems farfetched at this point of time. But i guess this direction is inevitable given the self-centred, petty and selfish nature of my ex.
It comes a full circle, 8 months that has past will be retired to mere memories, retired quickly in hope that anger and hatred will not taint the good memories that once were. TJIFs, 26ths and the piggy persona. I walked away, indeed i did JY if u are reading this. The world is not centred around you. You still do not understand this statement. If u did, perhaps you would have reflected more on the hurt and perhaps begin to quantify the sacrifices and pain i went through. Do not even begin to quantify the hurt i have caused you for if i counted mine, i would have blocked and deleted you a hundred times over.
The world used to centre upon you, my world. That is no longer true anymore. And the statement, the world does not centre around you, applies to both my world and the world at large. Learn to give, learn to love, learn to forgive.
As i walk away, i hope my absence brings you respite or comfort as it would seem to suggest from your actions that even my friendship ails your well-being.
As i pen this, i have already begin to forget. The last time we spoke on MSN, was the last time i allowed my heart to love. It too has begin to forget.
Posted by Jo